have u ever felt that everything has changed...and ur mind suddenly decided dat it was time to grow up...it is happening to me and i think im going insane...its like maturity is knocking my door saying times up...the funny thing is, a part of me...a big one, says i have to do it....and kinda like it too...the other part is like...DUDE, WAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOU???WHERE IS THE GUY WHO DOESNT GIVE A DAMN....and i calnt answer....its like standint between two towers...i know i have to decide for the better...but am i not abit too young still...(dun laugh...im serios...) i mean...common...19 years old....its like i was jas born less then 2 decades ago and i have to make my own decisions now....i have to start THINKIN....(trust me all u immature dudes reading this, its hard...ask the mature ones)...
responsibility is a heavy word by itself....a man becomes a man with the decisions he make...and if he decides to put on that word on...he is gonna be a great man....
but thinkin again, i dun wanna be any greater than anybody..i wanna be myself..but being this way (the way im kinda metamorphosising into) it makes me feel good (even though.....), i feel more relaxed...everything is done before the last minute...i have more time a day, its like all the dirt has been removed from my way...from my path...
if ANYONE is reading this right now...u most probably noe dat i like being more responsible and alll....but if i do...then why am i writing this....maybe i jas dun like it...and so if dun like it....i an jas cheating my self....who would cheat themselves?????..and since i do..maybe i am not myself...
FUCK......this is freaking crazy...its driving me insane....
i am the kinda guy who never liked the word RULE...i used to believe rules are made to be broken...but believe it or not...i have my own set of rules nowdayz...its crazy....does everyone need to grow up???if yes...then why....
why cant we all jas stay as kids...enjoy....
walk in a place where theres only grass...walk run and play all day long...not feel the pain even when we fall on our ass...not thinkin bout money, responsibility and whats right and wrong....
haiz..i jas wish....
